2011

what a year it has been, crazy to say the least. amazing, eye opening, core shaking, lowest of lows...highest of highs. the past 365 days have tested me beyond anything else in my adult* life. from living 6 hours away for a job that i ended up hating, to landing the job that answered all my wishes & moving back to new jersey. from starting the year broken, in love, hopeful, and committed to something/one who only existed in my head (see post; 'the non relationship, relationship). hitting rock bottom & slowly building me back up (still building). it has definitely been the first year i have been able to look within & say 'you need to change because this* is not working', i won't say i have completely changed but progress has been made...a foundation laid for 2012 and years to come, the 'adult' me. it has been a year of reflection & realizations...so here we are at the last night of the year. who knows if we will be here next year, if the mayans were right or if my calendar will end before that. destiny.

i have gained a new respect and appreciation for friendship, love and relationships. i have TRULY learned that only i can make changes in my life, no matter what is handed to me. i have learned that i can get whatever i want, as long as i am willing to put the work in. i have learned the beauty is in the breakdown and the true lessons are in the depths of struggle. i won't say 2012 will be 'my year', but it will be a more conscious one. i plan on making changes one day at a time, even if that means hitting the snooze button only once* in the morning to get a earlier start to my day (snooze button struggle, REAL!) . i do* have some personal resolutions i choose not to share with the world. if you don't believe in resolutions, i hope you still believe in room for change, growth and progress. every day is a new beginning, clean slate and opportunity to start the rest of your life. whether it be those last 20lbs you've been trying to lose, that book you've been meaning to write or that car you been saving up to buy...i hope 2012 brings you closer to your finish line and sets you up for the bigger prize, whatever that means to you.

do something that makes you happy every day. take an hour of your week & dedicate it solely to you. sleep in on sundays and party like a college kid once a month (or so ;)). motivate your friends. smile at strangers (even in new york city). laugh until you cry. and when you're feeling like this world is giving you too much...give back. if you're reading this far, thank you...and happy new year from the bottom of my little bunnie heart. <3